Thursday, July 29, 2010

One year since surgery

Wow...It's been awhile. I have been absent from my blogging for quite awhile, but I have held each and every one of you in my thoughts and prayers during my "absence". I realized a need to step away for awhile, to spend time in prayer, and re-evaluating my activities, commitments and direction. It has been difficult at times, but incredibly fruitful. I had gotten to the point of focusing on our infertility so much that everything in my life was viewed through that lens. I had gotten to the point on focusing so much on the 1 thing that I didn't have that I missed the 99 blessings I did. It was time to step back.

But today, marking the 1 year anniversary since my surgery, seems like a good time to come back. Reading my post regarding the surgery from last year was an interesting experience for me today. That incredible peace that I felt post-surgery that day has come and gone and come and gone...and come...and.... But looking at that post reminds me of the peace (you know, that peace that surpasses all understanding? ) that the Holy Spirit gave me post-surgery and the calm assurance I had that all would be well. That I didn't need to worry. All was progressing according to His plan. I still believe that, but when I look at my own plan, the answer's a bit mixed. Are we where I'd hoped we would be? No, not quite...since we still do not have a little one to share our life with. However, as I have had time to reflect I see the many ways that our lives have been blessed in the last year. My health has improved GREATLY. We are still seeing signs of improvement and continue to have hope. Our marriage is stronger as we have spent more time focusing on each other and enjoying each other rather than fretting about our childlessness. We have learned more on how to adjust my workload so as to reduce my stress and make me an overall healthier human being (and nicer to be around too!!!). And finally the incredible things happening in our Diocese in relation to Creighton/NaPro and also infertility support are nothing short of miraculous. It seems that in my darkest hours when I have barely been able to hang on to hope and have asked God to please make something beautiful out of this cross....He has been. I'm sure I will share more in the coming weeks on the events and happenings in our neck of the woods, but in the meantime, I want to say "hi" to all of you. It feels good to be back and I'm looking forward to talking to many of you soon.

Today, I celebrate one day ago today, when Dr. Parker did my surgery. I say "celebrate" because I am so thankful that we have access to wonderful doctors like him and have the availability of NaPro and also because of the ways my life has been blessed in the past year.
We may not yet have the baby our hearts desire, but in God's timing, He will make all things beautiful according to His plan!

God bless!

"Everyone chases after happiness, not noticing that happiness is right at their heels." ~ Bertolt Brecht

And to QueenKimie who posted a comment to my post on July 25th last year, please know that I am praying for you and am "here" for you if you have any questions. Thank you for your insightful comments! God bless you!


  1. Good to hear from you! I was wondering how you were doing. I know the year anniversaries after a surgery are hard..especially if the ultimate outcome has not been achieved. It's tough. But with God's love and strength..we can move on and move mountians..right? That is great that you are an integral part of getting Napro/Creighton and IF support started in your area. You are helping and making a difference for others. That is such a blessing to be able to do that!!!

  2. Glad to hear from you. Sorry that you aren't where you hoped you'd be a year after surgery, but I'm glad you have such a great attitude.

  3. Good to hear from you! Those are all such great things! Praise God!